Of Emcees And Farewell
warning: this is a ficking LOOOONG post.

extract from gets's blog.

"its so soon. keep thinking its only yesterday when we entered guides and treated the sec twos (now sec fours) like gods or something. and when everyone went round crushing rachel tay and saying may lee was hyper(O.o?). and saying they loved selina's name, cos its like s.h.e. that selena. oh the times.
and now people are still loving rachel tay (looks at jf) and may's really active physically, and i've gotten over selina's name."

ilu gets! (:

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here's the sweetest present(s) i've ever received:



THANK YOU RACHELTAYTARIK! :D

"THANK YOU for all the random moments we shared
THANK YOU for all the love you've given me
THANK YOU for, like candles, your pressence lights up my life
THANK YOU, for all the simplest memories we've shared
THANK YOU for being the friend i never had
THANK YOU for all the letters we've shared"

thnks fr th mmrs.
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to, YOU.
When i saw your presents, the first thing that came to my mind was this song, so here goes.

For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you
I'll be forever thankful baby
You're the one who held me up
Never let me fall
You're the one who saw me through through it all

I really cant believe that time passes this fast. it seems just ystd that we hated each other and called each others names and gossiped abt each other. and then that's where it started. KUCHA. i rmb staring unbelievedly at that dreaded list. right on top, PL: carmen cheng. PS: rachel tay. i went your class. discussed proposal. glared daggers at each other. then, i really don't know how, but by some miracle, i started to find you, quite okay la. precamp with you was awesome. the stuuupid mashmallow tricks and miss gwee's shirt and all the crap we did, like the chunkoaling and killing grass. and before we knew it, we were spending every free moment of camp gossiping and sort of bitching. and then, after camp, weird, and unexplainable, but we started msning new gossips. and that's how it all started.

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

the next thing i knew, we were betting. i lost the first ever bet, and i owed you ice tea. it was a friday. along with the ice tea, i wrote you a short note, really short. like twenty words. then i passed it to you (you were at the bookshop with your friends). and later during guides, i was sitting near the staircase, when you walked past. you flashed the usual 'hello-i-see-you-but-i-dont-want-anyone-to-know-i'm-saying-hello' smile and then, very very unexpectedly, you tossed your reply at me. we vowed to keep our letters short, we were busy enough, but who knew? the notes evolved to one page, then two pages, then two papers even. and those used to be daily letters. o.O and thus, the whole letter sequence was formed.
and then, time flew, and it was greybadges farewell. i know exactly what you did for me, and i'm really really very grateful. thanks so much for sticking up for me when noone would, i really really appreciate that. thanks for believing in me when noone would, for giving me a chance when others scoffed. "i help people who i think deserve it", you said.
in the end, nothing mattered. nothing mattered because, hey i know you tried, and, most importantly, "you do things for the love of guides." thanks so much for teaching me that.

You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand I could touch the sky
I lost my faith, you gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach
You stood by me and I stood tall
I had your love I had it all
I'm grateful for each day you gave me
Maybe I don't know that much
But I know this much is true
I was blessed because I was loved by you

thanks for all the times you cheered me up when i was down. all the smses, testimonials, calls. tags, emails, letters. every time i felt like giving up, you were always there for me. ALWAYS. this year's thinking day. Hollywoodaction emcee. when i was so stressed i was crying every night but i didnt tell anyone. then you gave me a talk or smth, and indirectly, without knowing it, i decided not to give up. cause of the postcard you wrote me. 'if you ever feel like giving up, then simply, for my sake, dont.' that was the line that kept me going. even for schoolwork. you even volunteered to give me a math crashcourse for eoy last year. and the whole 73.8% target thing. up to this day, you havent let me down once, its always the other way round. i'm so sorry i can only repay your kindness with disappointment.

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

thanks for being one of the few i can trust with my secrets. i rmb how we really trusted each other (and still do!) and yeah you told me lots of stuff you've never told anyone. you've never ever revealed anything i didnt want you to, except for two occasions i think, one when you let it slip in front of you friends (but made them swear to not tell anyone anyway) and two, last years list. but i realised that its my fault anyway, so yeah.
thanks for being the friend i can always confide in, be it troubles or gossip or problems or good news or feelings or whatever, you've always readily lent a listening ear. thanks for all our crazy midnight conversations and breaking of records (which incidentally, stands at urm what was it? 3.50am or smth) thanks for still messaging me to cheer me up/on though your message limit's already exploded.

You were always there for me
The tender wind that carried me
A light in the dark shining your love into my life
You've been my inspiration
Through the lies you were the truth
My world is a better place because of you

then soon, we started being more open with our friendship. we took our first picture, we waved openly when noone was looking, we exchanged secret grins, we mentioned each other on our blogs (I LOVE YOU LOGANPIE!) etc. to me, the ultimate step that touched me the most was when you admited to your friends that we're, well, friends :D :D :D and although im not on top of your friends list (HAHAHAHA) yeah was really shocked and touched when you told me! :D hahah we went out for outings twice, not including the times i helped you do all your shit, eg helping you buy ICECREAM or GOING ALL THE WAY to j8 to collect your stupid tickets and pass them back yo you at amk library. then again, you did a lot of stuff for me too, like the FALLOUTBOY concert call and whatnot. and im really really sorry i only got a 2 on your friendtest ): like felt damn bad when like may got what, 100? haha was fun tho (: and this year! all the popping up to your class, scandalstairs, lynning and jming around!! always popping into your class and disturbing the tchr :D

jf: err. wo ke yi jian yu4 mei2 mahh?
sjw: HAR. shen me?
jf: erm. yu4 mei4!
sjw: zhao shui?
jf: yu2 mei4..
sjw: puzzled look.
jf: AIYAH. RACHEL TAY LAH.

:D


you were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

and then 2/25/o7, exactly one month before my birthday, we sorta hugged. :D forced, but still sorta. HAHA. yeah i admit it was awkward and very forced and embarassing, but looking back now, i guess i dont regret it (: who knows whens the next time we'll get to hug again? (: let's not drift, cause i really cant bear to. and YOU. promise to come back at every opprtunity okay :D thanks one last time for all those moments, for trusting and believing in me, and for everything.

I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

because you loved me (:


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okay this whole chunk is for MAYLEE, cause i prosmied her i'll blog my thanks :D
psst. sorry this is so overdue!

HELLO :D first ever bougain PS! :D THANK YOU SO SO SO MUCH for everything! those crazy crazy lame times and jokes and just plain horsing around :D stealing of ezlink cards and crazy ideas for emcee and harry potter and our repairing wands!!! omg miss those times :D
thanks for all your advice throughout these years! dont worry, i WILL change (: i'll do my best to do what you said and change my attitude and everything. thanks for always believing the best in me and always giving me chances. thanks for standing up for me and being there for me! i rmb in sec two i really looked up to you cause (HAHA) i thought you were cool to juggle PL seriousness and bougain joking tgt. like being serious when you need to be yet not losing your fun streak and everything. (: thanks for putting up with my irritatingness and annoyingness and everything. you and cheryl are the best PLs ever! :D emceeing with you was great, HAHA i dont think id have that much fun with anyone else when discussing boring scripts and stupid casinos. xD thanks for all the 269s home tgt and waiting at the interchange until you left :D and the emoing in the bus when you talked to your friends! HAHA wont ever forget that, thought it was quite funny :D oh and THANKS for being such a great rp! you helped me with a lot of stuff when i needed help! HEE the OVEREXAGGERATION of an EMERGENCY that got me crying madly in the car. HMPH.

sorry for all the many times i let you down, not meeting up to your expectations and letting my immaturity be a problem. :/ sorry on behalf of the squad for the horrible footdrill sessions when everyone refused to time and all. sorry for always throwing your shoes down the specs stand when you get too irritating during patrol meetings :D and sorry for my irresponsibility and screwing up of cf :/ AND. DAMN DAMN freaking sorry for deleting the whole chunk of script that day, I REALLY REALLY dont know what i did! ><

thanks for giving me the chance to be a commander. :O
i swear, i really didnt expect to be the eighth.
i wont let you down, not again :D

hee your jokes always cheer me up :D even emcee auds with you was fun! especially the HARRYPOTTER ONE zomgness! (: making them shout and coming up the container class to perform :D and the CALLBACKS. twograce classroom! HAHAHA FIGHTING WITH BROOMSTICKS. and being the DISTRACTION omg was LOVE. HAHHA AND SETTING TRAPS FOR THE SEC TWOS WHICH IN THE END RESULTED IN ME FALLING DOWN xD haha the fan in front of the door to blow them away! and the JELLING OF HAIR HAHAHA. I LOVE YOU MALFOY! :D harrypotterGoCF '07 was freak awesome :D dont know if you can rmb, or if it had as big as an impact on you as on me, but yeah, thats something i'll never forget, and thank you so much for everything! :D

YOU COME BACK TOO OKAY.
AND PS. you OWE ME MY BIRTHDAY PRESENT :D :D
and thanks for telling everyone my dads a raving manical lunatic. xD
AND yes i know my suit cant fit you.
too bad :D

THANKS FOR THE MEMORIES MAY LEE MING FANG! :D

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afternotes.

and hey my loganpie. :D
just want you to know, although you DIDNT bring me to UK to buy xmen stuffs, i still love you :D
we'll just have to take the later flight.
cause i'll always be waiting for ya.

love,
jeanpie. xXx

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I'm gonna make it bend and break
(It sent you to me without wait)
Say a prayer but let the good times roll
In case god doesn't show
(Let the good times roll
Let the good times roll)

And I want these words to make things right
But it's for wrongs that make the words come to life
Who does he think he is?
If that's the worst you got, better put your fingers back to the keys

One night and one more time
Thanks for the memories
Even though they weren't so great
He tastes like you
Only sweeter
One night and yeah, one more time
Thanks for the memories
Thanks for the memories
See, he tastes like you
Only sweeter

Been looking forward to the future
But my eyesight is going back
In these crystal balls
It's always cloudy
Except when you look into the past
One night stand
(One night stand)

One night and one more time
Thanks for the memories
Even though they weren't so great
He tastes like you
Only sweeter
One night and yeah, one more time
Thanks for the memories
Thanks for the memories
See, he tastes like you
Only sweeter

They say
"I only think in the form of crunching numbers
In hotel rooms
Collecting patient lovers"
Get me out of my mind
Get you out of those clothes
I'm a letter away
From getting you into the mood
Whoa

One night and one more time
Thanks for the memories
Even though they weren't so great
He tastes like you
Only sweeter
One night and yeah, one more time
Thanks for the memories
Thanks for the memories
See, he tastes like you
Only sweeter

(One night, one more time)
One night and one more time
Thanks for the memories
Even though they weren't so great
He tastes like you
Only sweeter
One night and yeah, one more time
(One night, one more time)
Thanks for the memories
(For the memories)
Thanks for the memories
(For the memories)
See, he tastes like you
Only sweeter

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goodbye my lover
goodbye my friend,

you have been the one
for me.

<3

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